Dude good for you!
This is something I’ve struggled with a TON over the 10+ years since I’ve lived on my own. It’s gotten just about as bad as some of the places you’d see on the “Hoarders” tv show.
I walked around in life with a huge amount of shame and self hatred over it.
I was super lucky to find a life coach of sorts about 1 1/2 years ago who’s helped me turn things around. I didn’t feel comfortable with her actually cleaning for me…but she’d come to my place once or twice a week and we’d just chat away…while I’d slowly work my way through each room picking up all the trash and junk.
Took me months…but it slowly got there.
It’s been over a year now since I’ve let it get out of hand. It’s still a struggle though! I don’t think I’d be able to do it on my own either…but my life coach lady comes each week still and that keeps me motivated to keep it picked up.
I feel so much better living in a nice place. It really does give me a lot of peace of mind. I’m not paranoid of people seeing my apartment now…in fact I invite people over now! I’m really proud of my place!
Really proud of you man! This is a VERY healthy thing for you and I hope you’re feeling super proud of yourself!