So, I can’t afford a therapist and don’t have a large group of folks to talk to in my life honestly and with being a remote employee I have a better quality of life but I’m also way more isolated than I’ve ever been before.
I imagine others probably have a similar story and I know my problems aren’t major in the grand scheme of things and life will go on. I figure it might be cathartic to talk about how I’m feeling and what’s going on in life and y’all are welcome to do the same.
Personally, I’ve been feeling mildly overwhelmed in life. It’s not any one thing it just allot going on.
Work has been ramping up while being continuously short staffed and over worked. I’ve also been really burnt out this year and trying not to show it, but I’ve been doing the work of two-three people for a year and a half and while I’ve been recognized for it and compensated fairly for the additional load, I’ve been feeling the strain hard and its unmotivated me making work feel like a never-ending slog that just keeps piling with no end in sight. I get it everyone probably feels this way and my job is relatively easy at least to me but it’s so tedious and mind numbing.
I’ve also been having a bunch of stuff popping up. My dog being put down and the legal troubles both criminal and civil that have come along with that have been challenging and I still miss my dog. Putting down our oldest cat was tough, and I miss my office cat the others don’t hang out with me like crookus did. My mom went into the hospital a few weeks ago and was in and out for a bit due to a stroke. She is now stable in a rehabilitation center but that’s put a strain on the family and isn’t cheap.
On top of all of that my kids are growing up and it’s hard to believe my little man is going to kindergarten soon and my baby girl is going to preschool, and we have another due in July. life is flying by, and I remember when I was able to hold my babies in one arm easily.
Then there are all the little annoying things like my Van had a recall (Honda) and the fuel pump blew but they won’t have parts till august so I’m in a rental thankfully paid for by the manufacture as its their problem and covered under warranty but still it’s another thing. My house had a section we found doesn’t have water proofing around a window that we have had to call in our home warranty about and thankfully new construction that should be covered but it’s a hole in the house and more stuff to worry about. Just silly things that keep adding up.
Thankfully other than getting mildly sick this week my health has been holding up and other than my mother everyone else in my family is doing well and in good health and even my mother is recovering and on the mend at this point.
As silly as it is especially to folks not in the yoyo community, I’m proud of what I’ve been doing in yoyo. YYBC and the events we have run have been fun and awesome and I hope they have added something to everyone’s lives. The DC area club DMVT has been growing and I’m in talks with a few places for a venue for a spring 2025 Washington DC yoyo contest if things can keep on pace. I’ve acquired less yoyos this year while still spending about the same, so I’ll take that as a draw but at least the things I’ve been acquiring are way higher quality and I’ve been making stuff (3d printing and modding and such) which is super cool. My skills haven’t improved as much as I would like but I can tell I’m more consistent in what I do know which while not much is a measurable improvement from my past self, and I will take that win however slight.
All this to say I see I have good in my life and there are some awesome people in this community that have enriched my life in ways I can’t express properly but I appreciate greatly but I’m still feeling overwhelmed and maybe chatting about it will help me put it in a better mental frame. I know I’m personally very fortunate and in a great place vs many many other people both in our community and in the world but it’s hard not to see all the cards stacking up and feel a lump in your throat you know.
