At school for 10 more days (That ends june 11), which is great, cus I need way more time to practice my freestyle.
Saw my school counselor a week ago and it made things much better for my mental health. I even got one the virtue of the month award (its a virtue thing that my school does every month), and that gave me a free dress down pass!
Just because I don’t have a bully, life is still lonely for me. And since its near the end of the year, no ones gonna try and hang out with me. Everyones always talking about being on google docs to study with each other, and saying they invided pretty much EVERYONE in the grade (I go to a small private school, so theres only 2 homerooms), and of course, I’m not in it. They also always talk about hanging out with each other on fortnite, but they never wanted to play with me. Sometimes they ask me what video games I play, and I just say fortnite, and I end it there so I don’t get embarased. I play minecraft every once and a while, but it can get really boring since nobody plays with me, so instead, I sadly watch youtube shorts on my phone, getting tips and how to be “cool”, but not being “cool” And there is this event in my city, where it is the anniversary of when the city was made, and every hangs out with each other and invites to others to hang out with them, but of course, nobody said yes to hanging out with me so far.
I also have trouble in school for some reason, and I do pretty bad in tests and stuff like then, and thats why I never talk to my classmates about grades and stuff like that, because almost all of them are straight A people, while I’m a c-.
And of course, since I’m a “slim boy with no muscle”, I get made fun of in conversations. People always make fun of me for not going to the gym, which I did, until my dad cancled the pass to save more money, it after I didn’t use it enough. I try to explain things out to my friends, but they don’t care. Comparred to my rich private school friends, I am on a low level to them. I see them sometimes looking at there houses when they try to see where they are, and I see their house, and it is HUMUNGOUS! I have a house that is much smaller than theirs, but they always say that it is average. But rememeber! I am one of the 7 people in my family. My brother is 15, I’m 13, my brother is 11, my little sister is 8, and my brother is 5. Obviously, it can be really hard to get along with family when there are so many young kids crowded into a small house. I also always see my classmates at my table with their yummy snacks, while I’m snacking on off brand food while my classmates talk over me. And one of the people can be nice, but is also a jerk.
So in the end, life can be A LOT better. The school year is about to end, so that will make it 10 times better, and meeting more of my yoyo people at nationals will make my moral skyrocket. So right now, life is a 6.5. It is pretty mid and has lots and lots of bumps. It OK right now, but I really want to leave school.