I need to vent a bit

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Alright, I’ve been a bit angry recently, here’s the gist of it…

so back in October, the whole family got Whooping Cough, including me, and then in December or so (when we finally got better) we all got Covid, and then a Cold, and then the Flu, and now some other thing.

now for me, whenever I get sick, I don’t sleep well, so since October, I have not been sleeping well at all. and sleep deprivation messes with all kinds of things, and for me it has mostly been my ability to process anything and everything.

It’s been messing me up big time, I can hardly think straight, I have a hard time understanding concepts/ideas, I can’t deal with emotions properly, and the list goes on…

on top of this all, I’ve been growing a lot, so I’m basically in physical pain 24/7 which has only made things worse. on the bright side, I’ve gotten pretty tall. :man_shrugging:

the point is, I’m messed up big time right now, I can’t think well, it’s a chore to function physically and mentally, my brain is pretty much convinced that everybody loathes me, whether they do or not, and it’s really taking a toll.

thanks for sticking with me in spite of this all.

alright, rant over–I hope to see you around.

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I think it is a given that we all love you bro, I’m very sorry to hear how unwell you have been…

Things will get better, and just remember that the bad times are there to contrast the good to let you see how beautiful it really is.

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Sorry to hear that. Being sick is the worst and I can only imagine how much worse that is for a youngster. Hope everything gets better soon.

While I’m at it let me take the time to thank you for contributing to the forum so much. As someone who reads more than I post, it’s seeing all the good energy you bring around here with your posts and jokes.

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You’re a good kid, and things will get better. Just try to have the same patience for others that you hope to receive. Everybody has bad days and sometimes things may come off personally, but they seldom are. Have patience in yourself and everyone else. It’ll be alright

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Just know every one of us is going through some kind of tough time. I wish the best for you. I’m going through something tough but I do not want to trade my trouble for anyone else’s trouble. Life tends to make us tougher. Be well, buddy!

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I can relate to how bad the lack of sleep over an extended period of time can be. Anyone who has sleep apnea felt a lot of what you feel before getting treatment. I used to drive 20 miles to my first job most times and when arriving I would have no memory of driving there at all. And I would gladly go back to that in place of where my mind is these days. It’s tough. I wish there were some sort of ancient remedy but unfortunately sometimes we all hit a string of unfortunate things. It’s gotta be tough because you have a large family and that greatly increases the chances of getting and keeping sickness in the house. Sorry to hear it’s that rough for you buddy. I can’t speak for everyone but I like you pretty good. You are a clever and intelligent young man who is cordial and mannerly… and somewhat entertaining. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts: :rofl:
Convince yourself that those negative thoughts are not true and don’t let them keep you down.

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Thanks for the support, guys. I really appreciate it.

Stuff just keeps coming at us, my 9 month old sister was choking pretty bad, people are crying, 911 just got here, it’s looking like she’ll be just fine, but gosh, I’m scared bad… my hands are shaking something awful, I can’t think at all anymore…

I really don’t know when I’ll be online again, could be today, or tomorrow, or whenever, I’m terrified… I’m sorry guys.

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Good news–She’s alright! they’re on their way home now!

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Glad to hear your sister is ok.

On the other hand, life is full of surprises, some good, some not so much. At times it seems more of the latter, but I think for the most part it pretty much evens out over time (barring a major catastrophe :nauseated_face:) But then I’ve always been a glass half full rather than half empty kind of guy. So hang in there…

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Just wait til you have kids… :joy:

But seriously, life is hard. And often doesn’t feel fair. It’s good to talk about that fact, instead of wondering why no else seems to be struggling.

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Thanks, guys.

Things have gotten better! My (other) sister and her son just came from Alabama for a surprise visit while her husband is doing some military stuff, it’s been very effective at brightening the mood!

My little sister is doing fine, she’s on some medication now, which has proven helpful against her acid reflux, I think the person who’s got it worst right now is my mother, the whole not breathing thing kind of disturbed her, but she seems to be doing better.

Life is hard, getting better… we’ll make it through, we have many good things to be happy about.

Thanks for the concern everybody, it means a lot.

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Sorry to hear that. Back-to-back-to-back sickness is a real pain. When my daughter started kindergarten last year she was bringing something home every other week and we went through the same thing. You understand the importance of sleep and impact of health on wellbeing, so I have no doubt you and everyone else will be good once all of these winter bugs are gone.

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My wife started a daycare out of our house, it has been a rotating appearance of different illnesses ever since lol

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It’s funny that this thread was brought back today… I just got sick with something again, lol.

mostly just body aches, I’ll be fine.

thanks for the well wishes.

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I’m just getting over something gnarly. Can’t wait till the next one!

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I get ya buddy, life is tough.

In the last 3 months I’ve lost an Aunt, two Uncles. My wife developed heart issues, my daughter got an antibiotic resistant infection, and we thought we could get to a place where we lose her. My other daughter started passing out randomly.

My windows and roof started leaking on a a brand new house and they are saying warranty won’t cover. And our car is starting to break down.

But you know what, life just keeps on keeping on. Gotta find the thing every day you’re thankful for - and just focus on those good things.

It all has a way of working out for the best in the long run. And I’m always here if anyone needs anything, even to just talk

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I mean… what do you say on that?? It’s amazing that despite all of that you’ve found your way back to us to be a major encouragement. :smiling_face_with_three_hearts::smiling_face_with_three_hearts::smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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We’ve never met. I can tell you this though, reading your posts and insights is always a pleasure. You seem like a well adjusted intelligent young man. Based on what you’ve written on this forum I can’t imagine ANYONE loathing you lol.

Remember that as bad as things are, they always seem to self correct and get better.

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