I wish the best for you and your family. From 19-24 I was in and out of jail and hurting the ones who loved me the most (my family) by my addictions. It took a rude awakening of a near death overdose to realize I needed help. I began yoyoing about 2 years ago and in that time I have stayed clean the whole time and became a father to a wonderful little girl. To me yoyoing saved me from this life and is a good tool to use to keep your mind busy.
Also you will become who you surround yourself with. I always denied this cause it seemed like the saying ment I was a fallower and not my own person but its true. Surround yourself with good people and true friends. Lastly never put so called friends in front of your family. They are the only ones who will stick by your side threw it all. I had so many “friends” and when the sh** hit the fan they all bailed and I would of been alone if it wasn’t for my loving family.
Take care dude. dont beat yourself up for this just live and learn. We all make mistakes. Its up to you to decide what your going to do with these lessons.