Not sure if I should even make this, but it’s been a feeling I’ve had for a few weeks now.
I feel like I may either be taking too big a swing on the tricks I’ve decided to learn next, or if I’ve just plateaued at my skill level for now, but I feel like I am losing a bit of the touch.
I think what has got me is the struggle I’ve had with spirit bomb and beef hook, two notoriously hard tricks, and I’ve gotten close but just can’t do it, the tutorials don’t click, etc. I’ll think I got it, but then turns out I missed an element or I’m doing something differently. I really appreciate when I am corrected, don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to look like a goober saying I’m doing something when I’m not.
So then I’ll try to jump on Average Throwers Club tricks and get discouraged because some (many) of those are just brutal to learn, and if those are average tricks and skill levels, where the hell am I? What am I doing? Collecting art?
Idk, I guess I am just getting too in my head and trying to meet goals and expectations that I set for myself and are implied by the community, and I feel like I’m coming up short? I know it’s just a toy, but it’s something I care about and feel deeply connected to. Maybe just need to go back to practicing basics, or find easier things to work on, but idk what. It’s a little bit discouraging too when I go to look a tutorial up on something and they start it by saying “okay this is really easy actually” and then I struggle for days.
I know it’s okay to abandon tricks and move on to others but I still sometimes feel like there is some stuff that will always be untouchable no matter how I try. I know I’ve felt like that, pushed through it, and learned the trick (Chopsticks GT, from ATC for example, or Boingy Boing), but idk. I guess I’m falling into the “Social Media Trap” of comparing myself to others. Sometimes I feel embarrassed by my skill level, but when I show a “normie” some of the stuff I do know, they are very impressed and tell me to stop being humble. My friends refer to me as “the YoYo master” and I think that gives me some imposter syndrome lol.
I guess I needed to vent a bit, idk.
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